Leaving for real now

Even though we’ve been living in Serenity for like 9 weeks, we’ve been parked with family. As we pack up to leave Wyoming and head to Minnesota I’m realizing that this is really our first destination.My sadness is strong enough i couldn’t ignore. It’s hitting me that we are leaving all family behind today for the next year! That is a long time for us, for me. These last few weeks with friends has been a good start because i didn’t really feel like i was actually gone yet. (By the way- how is it my friends’ parents turned into such awesome people like overnight? When I left home at 20 they were just these ‘rents, I go back a few years later and they are full-blown cool people! I’m sure it was them that changed and not me. 😉 )

 

As I look out the window to see the rolling hills of Wyoming (that greatly resemble the Prairie above Kamiah) its really hard not to worry about the family and friends we are leaving behind, whose lives will inevitably continue and change without us. They will do things I’m not a part of. The hole I’ve left behind will be filled with someone else. My sister-in-law will find a new wine drinking buddy. My brother will find a new fill-in babysitter. My nieces might forget how close we were. The list goes on and on. It’s kindof heart wrenching knowing that we will be that easy to replace!! 😀

It helps to keep reminding myself about my dad though. He would absolutely LOVE what we are doing. In all likelihood he and my mom would have been traveling with us as often as possible. Of course Hannah and he would be inseparable and he’d be right here with us if he could. Some of my best memories are of my trip to Colorado with my dad when I was really young. The time we spent talking and laughing and being goofy. I want Hannah to be able to look back on her time with daddy up there driving Serenity with the same loving nostalgia of a goofball dad that keeps trying to teach her about the world outside the car (in our case- our home).

I need to get better at keeping in touch. If you are reading this and I haven’t spoken to you in a bit, text me! Its not that we don’t want to hear from you, we most definitely do. I miss you all more than you know! <3


2 Responses to Leaving for real now

  1. Glad I turned out cool. Love and miss you already.

  2. Avatar charlette hart
    charlette hart says:

    I know its awesome and scary all at once. Love you